This post is going to be a time for me to vent once again. This time the subject is family.
When there are times like today, my sister's birthday, and any other birthday or holiday where family is supposed to be able to come together, I feel as if my family is the most disfunctional family on the planet. I know this is not true and that it could be much worse, but I really do feel that way often.
Let's start off with invites. When there is a holiday or birthday in my family, we celebrate and invites have to happen. Well, those are not simple in my family. On my mom's side OR my dad's side. For example, if aunt so-and-so is going to be invited...then don't invite grandma...or if cousin so-in-so is coming...then mom isn't going to go. Blah Blah Blah!!!! WHAT IS THE POINT OF THAT? Can we not really all just be in the same room for those 3-4 times a year that we celebrate together??
Mark 12:31 says "...You shall love your neighbor as yourself..." It's the second greatest commandment next to loving God.
Matthew 7:12 basically tells us the Golden Rule
There are also a million verses that tell us to "Honor Our Father and Mother" and "Obey Our Parents."
My family clearly has chosen to ignore all of the latter. I'm really just SO tired of my siblings, cousins, and I having to pick and choose which family members are the "right" ones to invite to our parties or celebrations. WHAT IS THE POINT OF THAT? I'm tired of seeing mothers sad because their sons and daughters and grandchildren cannot all be in the same house at the same time...instead someone always ends up being left out and hurt. WHAT IS THE POINT OF THAT? Why is it that whatever stupid grudges people hold in their minds about the past cannot be covered for ONE day so the celebration or party can just be about that person it's supposed to be for? I'll never understand and I'll never be happy about it. Family drama like this is what makes me not want to have holiday celebrations or birthday parties with my family...ever.
And That Is What...Breelynn Believes
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Day 19: What I Miss
Day 19: What I Miss
What is it that I miss? Where do I begin? I disliked high school very much. I wouldn't ever say that I miss it or I want to go back. There were things that came along with a high school experience that I do miss though. For starters, my mom used to be an AISE representative when I was in high school. AISE is an association that places foreign exchange students into american high schools for a year. My mom used to do that. So! I had the opportunity to meet so many students my age from all over the world. During this process I hosted a few in my home, my room, my family, and my friends. I shared my life and my world with these students. All together we had 8 students to live in my house over the years. The ones who became true family members were Barbara (Slovakia), Yuki (Japan), Connie (China), Fabio (Brazil), and Pim (Thailand). So, when asked the question "what do you miss", I automatically think of my Pimmy. It was hard to see all of these girls and boy go, and I hate to admit that I have a favorite, but I do. Pim was the closest thing to older sister that I have ever had in my life. (Even though we joke because I was bigger than her, but she was a year older than I was.) I always wanted an older sister, and I had one for a full year. We still talk on the phone every chance that she gets, and I do plan on us seeing each other eventually. She's been gone for 6 years now, but it still feels like it was just yesterday that we were doing everything together. So that is what I miss. I miss her.
Love you Pimporn Jane Nusitchaikarn Hammon! ;)
And That Is What...Breelynn Believes
Monday, June 17, 2013
Day 17: What I'm Looking Forward To...
Day 17: What I'm Looking Forward To...
This is easy! The first thing that pops in my head when I'm asked this question is...GRADUATION. I will finally be finished with SEMO after my student teaching this fall. I'm also really looking forward to the step that is student teaching as well, but graduation trumps that. Just knowing that I've accomplished something that I have had my mind set on since I basically started school is really exciting. I'll be the first in my family to get a Bachelor's Degree. Right now, because I'm SO tired of school and ready to start teaching, I'm not thinking about a Master's. Not saying that I never will, but I just don't want to think about it right at this moment.
I don't know if this is sad, but that's all I currently have to look forward to. I mean, long term I'm looking forward to getting a teaching job, a house I can call my own, and eventually a family. But, short term...graduation in December 2013. I don't have any trip plans this summer like I usually get to look forward to, but I can look forward to all of the sleeping that I will be doing after my group piano lessons are finished and drama camp ends.
And That Is What...Breelynn Believes
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Day 16: Something I'm OCD About
Day 16: OCD
There are just a few things that I am actually OCD about, but those few are pretty specific in my head. I'm not so bad that I can't sleep if these things are not right, but I will be the one to fix them if I see them because it will bother me to look at...
1. The blinds on the windows all have to be at the same length. I hate it when some of the blinds are half of the way down and others are three-fourths of the way down. This bothers me more when they are side by side. If they are on windows that are not side by side, I may be able to deal with it.
2. Dishes, mostly plates and bowls, need to be stacked in a pattern. I feel like this one is more of a preference. For example, when there are two different decorative sets of plates in a cabinet, then all of one kind needs to be stacked on all of the other kind. If they are intertwined...I don't like it. Same thing with bowls in a cabinet. Also, if there is color involved, then they need to be stacked in a pattern or all one color on top of all the other color. No order with color bothers me in this area.
3. If there are two stacks of something, they both need to be as equal as possible. For example, when I see two stacks of plastic cups, I like to arrange them where they stand at the same height.
Those are the only things that I can really think of right now. I feel like there is another big one that I'm forgetting, but I can't remember it for the life of me. I guess when I see it again I will know.
And That Is What...Breelynn Believes
Day 15: My Dream House
Day 15: My Dream House
I'm not really sure what all details are within my dream house, but this picture is a round-a-bout look that I really enjoy on a house.
And That Is What...Breelynn Believes
Friday, June 14, 2013
Day 14: A Picture I Love
Day 14: Pictures I Love
I could not pick 1 picture that I loved more than any other, so I picked my top 4.
This was right before my 21st Birthday dinner.
This one was staged in New York City outside of the Broadway Production of In The Heights
This one happened sidestage before a performance of Once Upon A Mattress
This was a Spring Break On Ice pic
And That Is What...Breelynn Believes
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Day 13: My Life Goals
Day 13: Goals
Well, I have a mixture of short term and long term goals...so this is something that I can put into a list! Yay lists! Here it goes...
1. Finish student teaching successfully
2. Graduate from SEMO with my Bachelor's Degree
3. Get my substitute certificate for the state of Illinois to go along with my Missouri one
4. Sub for a few months while looking for a school district I really like
5. Get my first full time teaching position (hopefully in 1st, 2nd, or 3rd grade). I love the babies.
6. Get my own apartment or house (I'm looking forward to not having more weirdo roommates.)
7. Travel around the world (I really wanna visit Pim!)
8. Be in some more musical productions on stage...I miss it too much.
9. Give music lessons (This could be anything)
10. Meet the man of my dreams and have a huge wedding
And That Is What...Breelynn Believes
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